Nervousness + Sri Amma Bhagawan + Mom = Calmness

Sri Bhagawan and Sri Amma

Why is it that every time I am about to have a new job interview I end up being so nervous I can’t think straight and I always seem to hear my heart beat faster when its 10 minutes before the interviewer makes a call on my computer? It’s like every time its always something new to me that I tend to shake and then I start thinking very negatively, after which I will end up running at the balcony japa at hand then I start chanting, give it 5 minutes later I feel peace and serenity, I feel that things will go to the right way, I feel like the whole world will lift me up and bring out of the muddy waters on to the dry land, moola mantra always seem to do the trick for me, as soon as I walk back to my computer mom will sitting beside me and say “kaya mo yan, ikaw pa?” meaning “you can do it, you know it”, I guess that is how parents are supposed to be to their children always giving them the strength to fight the big fight.


I gave me another 2 minutes of deep breathing then the call starts, I tend to be very cheerful like nothing is going to go wrong and it seem that I tend to find what the interviewer really wants to hire, we talked as if we are friends that haven’t seen each other in a long time, but honestly I don’t even know the person, she is from another country, but when she said I think I made a right choice in taking you in, I asked her why?, she said “i know you make a very good teacher, you’re very smart and you know where your students will be coming from since you are in the same race as they are’, so I think how i look like besides the brains really has its points, she said my students will use me a s a role model that in the future they will want to be me or just like me, that gave me a huge boost in confidence.


the best source of strength and calmness is Meditation on Sri Amma Bhagawan, my mom’s words of encouragement and being just plain ME made the difference, I know I wasn’t all that but if you explore yourself more and open your mind to possibilities nothing can hold you down in getting what you wish to get in the future.